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Ana Narayan's avatar

Not to be dramatic but this article changed my life!!! Like yes I WILL speak how I want and sorry if it makes you uncomfortable! It's refreshing to see someone articulate these experiences so thoughtfully—thank you for giving voice to what so many of us feel!

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Kevin Terrell Madison's avatar

This is beautifully written! And so relatable also as a queer fem man in academia. It’s making me think about how “masculine” speech patterns are sort of like short bursts of the most compacted, dense version of a thought, trying to be as efficient and “intelligent” as possible. One might say it’s imbued with an inherently hierarchical air, like it is speech that *assumes* it will have to fight for space. It is spoken from a place of emotional lack. It does not want to leave room for the possibility of interjection because it considers being listened to at a premium. I think this is reflective of how men feel that no one will want to listen to them, to hold them, because men “don’t need that” yada yada…. ironically - it makes them speak MORE lol

This is why when I would be saying something in class and trail off and honestly just try to think intentionally about the next thing I wanted to say I’d become nervous. There was this sense I wasn’t “supposed to”. But feminine speech patterns, as you’re pointing to, are often just patterns that leave space for others to feel comfortable, or reassure a space that there is room for other options. That scares men who are used to existing in a space of lack as opposed to the abundance of the divine feminine ❤️‍🔥

But as I started to become more comfortable with taking up space as a feminine person in those spaces I would intentionally pause and force the men in the room to pause with me. Looking around at them slowly, daring someone to interrupt 😇 It’s interesting the dance between self-confidence, oppressive social dynamics and self-sabotage…like one can never truly know how much of any of those things is at work and THATS the real mindfuck//destructive force of patriarchy.

Thx for this inspiring read and the food for thought today (:

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